So it’s, oh, 1:30 in the morning and I can’t sleep. I took a nap earlier in the day, so that may be why. Or it could be that feeling that I didn’t accomplish anything today. I didn’t create, I didn’t finish, I didn’t do. I slept late, I ate, I watched television (the first episode of Stylelicious on DIY, hosted by the Austin Craft Mafia), I worked at the shop, I napped, I ate again, I surfed, I read a bit. For some reason, that’s just not enough in my perfectionist brain. I could have washed the dishes, washed a load of laundry, organized our file box, sewed an apron or two, made a few purses I’ve been thinking about, written some poetry, knitted something, created something with my huge stash of paper, cooked an elaborate meal, or gone for a walk. At the end of the day, it’s the shoulds that are stuck in my head. And somehow, staying up late makes up for that. What is that all about?

I’ve also been thinking about the comments situation. Man, I hate spam. And my little old blog isn’t equipped for spam-blocking. I could move it over to another blog program, which would entail lots of work, many hours of my husband’s time, and possibly the loss of some old stuff. Or I could keep getting email after email letting me know that George Humbledeebug left a comment saying “Great site, webmaster!” or “Buy this drug!” I worry about not having comments…what if some of you have questions about a recipe or a website, and don’t want to email me directly? What if I’m losing the opportunity to find your great blogs through the comments you leave? What if I feel lonely all day without an email or two saying that one of you stopped in to say hi?

I haven’t decided what to do yet. I thought I had, but maybe not. So, comments are on.

Sally tagged me for this meme…I’m guessing it was originally for April 5th, but you don’t mind, right?

1. Five minutes to yourself: how would you spend them, ideally?

Writing in my journal, emptying out my head and scheming new things.

2. Five bucks to spend right now: how would you spend it?

Twenty sheets of gorgeous paper from Hobby Lobby.

3. Five items in your house you could part with, right now, that you hadn’t thought of already? (In other words, cull the junk, mentally at least.)

A pair of beige sandals I never wear, old half-burnt candles, wilted lettuce in the fridge, the Anatomy Coloring Book, copies of recipes I’ll never make.

4. Five items you absolutely, positively could never part with in your house?

My knives, our old brown comforter (called the catnip blanket because it’s so deliciously comfy), my journals, my little pillows that my grandma embroidered for me, a music box my mom gave me that plays the song she used to sing to me when I was in her belly.

5. Five words you love?

Elegant, earthy, behoove, create, feminine.