Sometimes I get overwhelmed with life and all of its details. Sometimes it seems like I just don’t have enough… not enough time, or money, or energy, or life to give. Sometimes I feel like everyone and everything is pulling at all of my strings, and I’m slowly unraveling. I want to scream out, I want to curl up in a ball, I want to wrap my arms around myself and hold myself together.
What can I tell you about my life right now? I am working full time. I am trying to maintain relationships. I am trying to feed myself and my husband and my cats, and I am working on a project so big that it threatens to swallow me in one gulp. I will tell you all about it very soon, I think, as soon as everything is set. It’s exciting, and it’s all I want to talk about, think about, work on… why can’t life accommodate that?
So much pressure, stress, lack of sleep… I feel impatient, and tired, and frustrated. I’m trying to tell myself these things:
- You have to take care of yourself, and do what is best for you. Even if it’s not best for everyone else. Even if it makes other people upset. Even if it means you’re not the “perfect” person.
- You have to know your priorities, and stick to them. Even if others want to put their priorities first. Even if they try to make you feel guilty.
- It’s okay to be grumpy. It won’t last forever.
- At the end of all this, you will be stronger, braver, more capable, and proud of your accomplishments (thank you, Abby).
So internets, I hope to have more lovely food photos for you very soon. Who knows? Maybe tomorrow I’ll wake up and everything will be roses. Until then, a few things that have been making me happy:
Be well, friends. Tomorrow is a new day.